...too take the bull by the horns. Time is wasting when you are not productive, you accomplish nothing when you are doing nothing. It never gets you very far before you get frustrated with the bare minimum. If things happen for a reason, why aren't they happening to me. It seems that life/God, trickles happiness down my way ever so slowly, just enough to calm me down and humble me. Perhaps that's what I need in my life. Perhaps, I'm special. Perhaps, I need the lessons. Sometimes I think "am I being toyed with". I feel so Blessed ,yet held back at he same time. Do I feel something that everyone around me should feel. Such a pickle, but not. I just want to make this life count, doesn't everyone.